could see now what she couldn’t see then. All choices had consequences. It was what you did with those consequences that mattered.
* * *
Eva’s gaze tracked down the small service road that wound its way through the hundreds of acres that comprised Tilden Park. Something about this meeting felt off, and her instincts, finely tuned after so many years, were pinging. She’d give Brittany ten more minutes and then leave. Return to her car and drive home, closing the door and forgetting about this woman. Eva worked hard to stay sharp. To not grow complacent and careless. Despite how mundane the work could sometimes feel—the endless hours in the lab, the quick handoffs with Dex or a client—this job was dangerous.
Early on—it must have been some time in her first year—Dex had woken her, just before dawn, a quiet knocking on her door. “Come with me,” he’d said, and she’d pulled her coat from the hook, following him across the deserted campus, the pathways still lit by lamps.
They’d walked west without talking, past the track stadium, restaurants and bars closed and shuttered at that predawn hour. She’d seen the flashing emergency lights from a block away. Police, ambulance, yellow crime-scene tape cordoning off the sidewalk outside a cheap motor court motel, forcing them to cross the street.
Dex had put his arm around her and pulled her close, as if they were a couple making their way home after a late night out. They’d slowed as they drew near, and Eva could make out a body, a puddle of blood seeping out from under it, a shoeless foot, the white sock practically glowing.
“Why are we here? Do you know that guy?”
“Yeah,” he’d said, his voice rough. “Danny. He supplied Fish with harder stuff. Coke. Heroin.”
Dex pulled her along, and they rounded the corner, the flashing red and blue lights still staining the backs of her eyelids. “What happened to him?”
“I don’t know,” Dex had told her. “Like you, I only see what I’m allowed to see. But if I had to guess, he was either double-dealing—working for one of Fish’s competitors—or he fucked up somehow, got snagged by police.” He paused. “That’s the thing about Fish. He’s not going to spend a lot of time asking questions. He’s just going to fix the problem.”
Eva couldn’t erase the image from her mind, the twisted form of the body, the sheer volume of blood, more than she’d ever imagined, a black-red shade that only appeared in nightmares.
Dex had dropped his arm from around her, and cold morning air chilled the place where it had rested. “Fish is a strong ally, but a ruthless enemy. He will not hesitate to eliminate anyone who betrays him. Maybe it was a mistake to have brought you here, but I needed you to see for yourself what will happen if you cross him.”
Eva had swallowed hard. Up until that point, she’d fooled herself into believing this job had been no different from any other—mostly routine, maybe a little dangerous in some abstract way. But Dex had insulated her from the worst of it. Until that morning.
“Full transparency,” Dex had warned, as they walked back up her street, the night sky finally shifting to a pale gray. He deposited her on the porch and disappeared, making her wonder if she’d dreamt it all.
* * *
Eva was just about to hop off the picnic table and head back to her car when a Mercedes SUV pulled up at the curb, a polished woman behind the wheel. In the back, Eva could make out a child’s car seat, thankfully empty. The license plate read FUNMOM1. Her lingering unease intensified, and she took a deep breath, reminding herself she was in control of the situation and could walk away at any time.
She watched as the woman got out of the car. “Thanks for meeting me!” she called. Her clothes were expensive casual. Chanel sunglasses tipped up on her head. Knee-high UGG boots, worn over designer jeans. This was not Eva’s typical ramen-fed student.
Up close, Eva could see the woman’s red-rimmed eyes, how her skin looked tired and stretched, though her makeup was flawless, and another tingle of apprehension zipped through her.
“Sorry I’m late. I had to wait for the sitter to show up.” She held out her hand for Eva to shake. “I’m Brittany.”
Eva let it hang there, keeping her own hands in her pockets, and Brittany finally let it fall to her side as she began digging through her purse