“Banner, I know what The Twilight Zone is, but why does it feel that way to you? Is it because we’ve known each other all semester and I’m just now making a move? The first day we met in Albright’s class—”
“We didn’t first meet in Albright’s class,” I cut in. “We met four years ago.”
“What?” He frowns. “No, I would have remembered.”
No, he wouldn’t.
“Obviously, you don’t.” My laugh is soft, self-conscious. “We met at freshman orientation. All the girls were squealing about you and Benton Carter. I want the blond one. I’ll take the one with dark hair.”
I drop my eyes to the floor.
“I sat right beside you,” I tell him. “And you asked to borrow a pencil.”
“I don’t remember any of this, but I do remember the first day I noticed you in Albright’s class.”
He looks at me, a dark blue direct assault.
“And I’ve been noticing you ever since,” he adds. “I thought we’d have more time, but when you said you’d be in New York next semester, I realized this might be our last night here together, and I couldn’t wait any more.”
“For me? You couldn’t wait for me?” Despite the wondrous words coming out of his mouth, I still have to ask. To be sure. “I’m sorry, but I’m so confused.”
“Still?” Something close to irritation mixes with the humor in his eyes.
He slides wide palms down my arms, gently squeezing the muscles through the heavy cotton of my sweatshirt.
“Then let me make it abundantly clear,” he says, his voice husky and sure. “I like you, Banner.”
Guys like him, not only this good-looking but also brilliant, have that one girl in college they date for the sake of their brain. It assures them they aren’t entirely superficial. When that girl is a CEO, cures cancer, or is the first woman on Mars, they can say I knew her when. I dated her . . . nay, I fucked her . . . when.
I was that girl to my last boyfriend, Byron. He dated me while he needed help getting through his Econ class, but that wore off. He cheated on me before the ink was dry on his final exam. I grew up with a father who never looked at another woman besides my mother and made faithfulness look good. Look possible, normal. So I have a zero tolerance cheat policy. When I discovered Byron’s infidelity and dumped him, he felt insulted that I, who should have been grateful he’d deigned to date me, ended it.
I could barely breathe when she was on top.
Everything jiggled when I fucked her.
Those are his cruel words I overheard. He said worse things that I didn’t hear for myself but got back to me and still haunt my thoughts. Still nick my confidence.
“You like me, huh?” I finally ask, training my glance on his chin, avoiding his eyes. “You mean in an ‘I think you’re smart and have a great personality’ way?”