my shirt open leaving me completely bare from the waist up.
His smile makes my stomach heave.
“Weston. You can’t do this.”
He lowers his head and draws his tongue around my nipple. It’s a disgusting imitation of a lover’s caress, and I can’t hold back my cries, as he sucks and licks and bites me until I beg him to stop.
“See? All you had to say is please,” he says, as he lifts his head.
He cuts every stitch of clothing off my body, and when he finally leaves the room, there’s not a single part of me he hasn’t touched.
“Turn her on her stomach,” he says to the man who carried me in. He’s sitting on a small sofa, stroking himself, as he watches me. I’ve never felt so vulnerable.
“And Regan, you better try to get used to it. I’ve got three customers upstairs waiting for you.”
I start to scream, and I don’t stop until Weston sticks a needle in my arm and injects me with something that makes it all go away.
Trust
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“Good morning, Goddess.” I push a lock of hair that came loose from my makeshift braid, out of her eyes, and she blinks, several times, then peers at the clock.
“Oh, heaven help me, why does my head hurt so much?” She covers her head with her hands and moans.
“You got drunk last night.” I reach over her and grab the two aspirin and the bottle of water. “Here, take these.”
I help her sit up, and she opens her mouth to let me drop the aspirin in and sips the water. She grimaces and swallows, but sighs and takes a few more sips of water, before she lays down again.
“Why are you here? Where’s your date?” she asks, her expression puzzled, and groggy.
I’d planned to ease into it, give her a chance to wake up, but I can’t hold it in any longer.
“I heard your podcast, Regan. I listened to the whole thing.”
She makes a sound, that’s between a moan and a whimper, and covers her eyes with her hands.
I pry them off her face and weave our fingers together in an imitation of what, I hope, we’ll do with our lives.
Then, I press our joined hands into the mattress to ground myself. Her warm, pliant hands a reminder that she’s here with me and safe. And that as long as I draw breath, that’s how she’ll stay.
“I’m so proud of you. Incredibly proud of you.”
“Proud of me? For what?”
I glance up to find her watching me with worried eyes. “I’m sorry you went through that. And I feel sick to think that he wanted to hurt you because of what I did.”
She sits up, suddenly, and winces. “No, don’t say that. You were a child. He was an adult, and what he did was because he’s depraved and emotionally broken. And because he could.”
“Yeah, but I stabbed him. I pressed the silent alarm and then left you face the music. Shit, Regan. I’m sorry...”
“No. Don’t say that again. Please.” She tries to free her hand and I let it go immediately.
She groans and flops back onto the pillows and flings an arm over her face. “See, this is why I didn’t tell you. Or anyone else.” she laments. “I can’t carry the burden of your guilt on top of mine. And unlike yours, mine isn’t imagined.”
“Imagined?”
She lifts her arm a fraction, and peers at me. “Yes, imagined.” she clips. “I’m not fragile. Don’t treat me like I am. What happened to me shouldn’t happen to anyone. But I got out of there. I got my life back. I’m a survivor. Not a victim. You should be afraid of me. Do you know the kind of strength it takes to put one foot in front of the other after a piece of your soul is irrevocably damaged? I won’t ever be the same. And I hate that it took my best friend dying to realize that may not be such a bad thing. I survived.” She makes a sound that’s halfway between a moan and a growl. Then she drops her arm to her side like it got too heavy for her to hold up anymore.
“Like I said, I am so proud of you.” I take her hand in mine again and trace the network of veins, smile at the way her fingers curl into my palm. I’m relieved she doesn’t resent me. But it’s going to take me a little while longer to get over my guilt. I wish I