Jaded (Rock Star Trilogy) - By Mercy Amare Page 0,59
ready for take off when you are, Miss Ryan.”
“I have to go. Goodbye, Stephan.”
I hear Stephan something something, but I click the “END” button on my phone. I can't hear what he has to say.
“I'm ready.”
As soon as the pilot walks back to the front, I let the tears flow, and I don't let them stop until I am back in LA.
Thursday, October 8
6:51 pm
Selfish bitch.
I have been in LA for four days now. My phone stopped ringing after the second day, and since then it has been quiet. I haven't had any updates on Bridgett, or worried/ furious calls from Stephan... Nothing. It's almost as if I never existed to them. Maybe I would feel better if they still called me. I would rather them be mad at me, then have them forget me.
But this is exactly what I wanted, or at least, that's what I keep telling myself.
My time in Florida was short... I wasn't even there a whole month, though it felt like much longer.
I wonder if it has been easy for them to go back to how their life was before I came. I wonder if they miss me. Because I miss them like crazy.
Since coming back to LA, the only person I have talked to is Alec. He is the only person who knows that I am here. Not even my dad knows. I know that I am going to confront him at some point, but not right now. I need time to heal.
So, for now, I wallow in my loneliness. I brought this on myself, and I deserve it.
Later that night, my doorbell rings. I wonder if it is Alec, but he's in New York visiting some family there. He won't be back until later next week.
When I get to the door, I'm surprised to see Stephan is standing on the other side. At first, I'm worried that something happened to Bridgett, but then I really look at Stephan, and he looks PISSED. He has every right to be mad. If I was him, I would be furious too.
“Do you want to come in?” I ask, mainly because I'm not sure what else to say.
He steps inside, but he doesn't say anything. He's looking around my foyer... looking anywhere besides at me. Everything about this situation is awkward.
“We can go sit down.” I start to walk towards the sitting area, but Stephan stops me.
“No. This isn't going to take long,” he says.
His words are sharp, and they scare me. I've never heard him use such a hateful tone with me.
“You need to come home, Scarlett.” He get's right to the point. “Please. For Bridgett... For me.” His voice softens as he says please.
“I can't.” The words get stuck in my throat. “I'm sorry.”
“What about me? Us? I really thought we had something between us.” For a second, he looks like he's going to cry, but he quickly recovers. “Are you really going to run away from this?”
“You and Bridgett are better off without me.” At this point, I'm not sure who I'm trying to convince... him or me.
“Shouldn't that decision be ours?” he asks.
I am not sure how to reply, so I don't. I just look at him, with tears in my eyes. I am completely broken.
“I'm not here to cry, and beg you to come home. I won't tell you that I love you, and need you, because I don't. I want you to come because you want to be with me as bad as I want to be with you. But, dammit Scarlett, even if you don't come for me, your sister needs you right now, and you ran away from her. You're a selfish bitch.” He doesn't give me time to reply. He just walks out, slamming the door. The sound echo's through the house.
My heart feels heavy because I know his words are true. I am a selfish bitch, and because of that, I'm not going home. They are both better off without me. I am doing them a favor by staying out of their lives.
I belong in LA, far away from the people that I care the most about. I can't hurt them more than I already have.
“Goodbye, Stephan,” I whisper to the door.
And just like that, my heart broke beyond repair.
The End.
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Acknowledgments
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