How the Light Gets In (Chief Inspector Armand Gamache #9) - Louise Penny Page 0,40

was warming in the oven.

It was as though he and the Brunels had just stepped out for a few hours and were returning home.

Two of Sarah’s fresh-baked baguettes sat in a basket on the marble kitchen counter, and Monsieur Béliveau had stocked the pantry and fridge with milk and cheese and butter. With homemade jams. Fruit sat in a wooden bowl on the harvest table

There was even a Christmas tree, decorated and lit.

Gamache loosened his tie, knelt down and struck a match to the wood and paper in the hearth, watching mesmerized as it caught and flared.

He exhaled. It felt as though a cloak, like the ghostly sheets over the furniture, had been lifted from him.

“Thérèse,” he called. “Jérôme.”

“Oui?” came the distant response.

“I’m going out.”

He put on his boots and coat and walked quickly through the crisp evening, toward the little cottage with the open gate and winding path.

* * *

“Armand,” said Clara, opening the door to his knock. Henri was so excited he didn’t know whether to jump up or curl into a ball at Gamache’s feet. Instead, the shepherd threaded his way in and out and around Gamache’s legs, crying with excitement.

“I beat him, of course,” said Clara, looking with mock disgust at Henri.

Gamache knelt down and played with Henri for a moment.

“You look like you could use a Scotch,” said Clara.

“Don’t tell me I look like Ruth,” said Gamache, and Clara laughed.

“Just around the edges.”

“Actually, I don’t need anything, merci.” He took off his coat and boots and followed her into the living room, where a fire was lit.

“Thank you for looking after Henri. And thank you for helping to get Emilie’s home ready for us.”

There was no way to explain how that home looked to weary travelers who’d come to the end of the road.

He wondered, in a moment that startled him, whether that’s what this little village was. The end of the road? And, like most ends, not an end at all.

“A pleasure,” said Clara. “Gabri combined it with a rehearsal for the Christmas concert and had us sing ‘The Huron Carol’ over and over. I suspect if you hit one of the pillows that song will come out.”

Gamache smiled. The idea of a home infused with music appealed to him.

“It’s nice to see lights in Emilie’s home again,” said Clara.

Henri crawled onto the sofa. Slowly. Slowly. As though, if he crept up and averted his eyes, no one would see. He laid out his full length, taking up two thirds of the sofa, and slowly put his head in Gamache’s lap. Gamache looked at Clara apologetically.

“It’s OK. Peter was never a fan of the dogs getting up on the furniture, but I like it.”

This provided Gamache the opening he was hoping for.

“How are you doing without Peter?”

“It’s the strangest feeling,” she said, after a moment’s reflection. “It’s like our relationship isn’t dead, but neither is it alive.”

“The undead,” said Gamache.

“The vampire of marriages,” laughed Clara. “Without all the fun blood-sucking part.”

“Do you miss him?”

“The day he left, I watched him drive out of Three Pines and then I came back here and leaned against the door. I realized I was actually pushing against it, in case he returned and wanted back in. The problem is, I love him. I just wish I knew if the marriage was over and I needed to get on with my life,” said Clara, “or if we can repair it.”

Gamache looked at her for a long moment. Saw her graying hair, her comfortable and eclectic clothes. Her confusion.

“May I make a small suggestion?” he asked quietly.

She nodded.

“I think you might try leading your life as though it’s just you. If he comes back and you know your life will be better with him, then great. But you’ll also know you’re enough on your own.”

Clara smiled. “That’s what Myrna said too. You’re very alike, you know.”

“I’m often mistaken for a large black woman,” Gamache agreed. “I’m told it’s my best feature.”

“I never am. It’s my one great failing,” said Clara.

Then she noticed his thoughtful brown eyes. His stillness. And the hand that trembled, just a little. But enough.

“Are you all right?” she asked.

He smiled, nodded, and rose. “I’m fine.”

He clipped Henri onto his leash and slung Henri’s bag over his shoulder.

They walked back across the village, man and dog, in the red and green and golden light of the three huge Christmas pines, making prints in the stained-glass snow. Gamache realized he’d just said to Clara the exact words he’d