of notebooks up, brought out the bottom one and handed it to me. ‘This is the latest. It changes at the end. You may find it interesting.’
I turned to the last entries in the book and with sorrow read:
‘Daddy is going away from me and I don’t want him any more. I think perhaps I will kill him. It isn’t so difficult. I’ve done it before.’
There was a space on the page after that, and then, lower down:
‘Ian is back with Daddy.’
Another space, and then,
‘IAN IS AT QUANTUM WITH DADDY. I CANT BEAR IT.’
After yet another space, she had written my name again in larger-still capitals ‘IAN’ and surrounded it with a circle of little lines radiating outwards: an explosion with my name in the centre.
That was the end. The rest of the notebook was empty.
Malcolm read the page over my arm and sighed deeply. ‘Can I have them?’ he said to Yale. ‘You don’t need them, do you? There won’t be a trial.’
Yale hesitated but said he saw no reason to retain them. He pushed the pile of books towards Malcolm and put the sweet tin on top.
‘And the lighthouse and clock,’ I said. ‘Could we have those?’
He produced the Lego box from a cupboard, wrote a list of what we were taking on an official-looking receipt and got Malcolm to sign it.
‘All very upsetting, Mr Pembroke,’ he said, again shaking hands, ‘but we can mark our case closed.’
We took the sad trophies back to the Ritz, and that afternoon Malcolm wrote and posted cheques that would solve every financial problem in the Pembrokes’ repertoire.
‘What about the witches?’ he said, if Helen and that dreadful Edwin and Berenice and Ursula and Debs are all having their own share, what about those other three?’
‘Up to you,’ I said. ‘They’re your wives.’
‘Ex-wives.’ He shrugged and wrote cheques for them also. ‘Easy come, easy go,’ he said. ‘Bloody Alicia doesn’t deserve it.’
‘Engines work better with a little oil,’ I said.
‘Greasing their palms, you mean.’ He still didn’t believe in it. Still felt he was corrupting them by giving them wealth. Still thinking that he could stay sane and reasonably sensible when he had millions, but nobody else could.
He wrote a final cheque and gave it to me. I felt awkward taking it, which he found interesting.
‘You should have had double,’ he said.
I shook my head, reeling at noughts. ‘You’ve post-dated it,’ I said.
‘Of course I have. I’ve post-dated all of them. I don’t have that much in readies lying around in the bank. Have to sell a few shares. The family can have the promise now and the cash in a month.’
He licked the envelopes. Not a cruel man, I thought.
On Tuesday, because I wished it, we went to see Robin.
‘He won’t remember Serena,’ Malcolm said.
‘No, I don’t expect so.’
We went in the car I’d hired the day before for going to Quantum, and on the way stopped again to buy toys and chocolate and a packet of balloons.
I had taken with us the Lego lighthouse and the Mickey Mouse clock, thinking they might interest Robin, over which Malcolm shook his head.
‘He won’t be able to make them work, you know.’
‘He might remember them. You never know. They used to be his and Peter’s, after all. Serena gave them the clock and made them the lighthouse.’
Robin’s room was very cold because of the open french windows. Malcolm tentatively went across and closed them, and Robin at once flung them open. Malcolm patted Robin’s shoulder and moved away from the area, and Robin looked at him searchingly, in puzzlement, and at me the same way, as he sometimes did: trying, it seemed, to remember, and never quite getting there.
We gave him the new toys which he looked at and put down again, and after a while I opened the Lego box and brought out the old ones.
He looked at them for only a moment and then went on a long wander round and round the room, several times. Then he came to me, pointed at the packet of balloons and made a puffing noise.
‘Good Lord,’ Malcolm said.
I opened the packet and blew up several balloons, tying knots in the necks, as I always did. Robin went on making puffing noises until I’d blown up every balloon in the packet. His face looked agitated. He puffed harder to make me go faster.
When they were all scattered round the room, red, yellow, blue, green and white, bobbing about in stray air currents, shiny and festive,