"That's what I thought." And his voice was a growl.
He kissed me again. His arms were so tight around my ribs, his mouth so fierce against mine, that I was soon dizzy and gasping for air. He loosened his arms a little then and let his lips slide to my ear.
"Let's go."
"Where? Where are we going?" I wasn't going anywhere, I knew that. And yet how my heart pounded when I thought of going away, somewhere, anywhere, with Ian. My Ian. He was mine, the way Jared never would be. The way this body could never be his.
"Don't give me any trouble about this, Wanderer. I'm half out of my mind." He pulled us both to our feet.
"Where?" I insisted.
"You're going down the eastern tunnel, past the field, to the end."
"The game room?"
"Yes. And then you are going to wait there until I get the rest of them."
"Why?" His words sounded crazy to me. Did he want to play a game? To ease the tension again?
"Because this will be discussed. I'm calling a tribunal, Wanderer, and you are going to abide by our decision."
Chapter 57: Completed
It was a small tribunal this time, not like the trial for Kyle's life. Ian brought only Jeb, Doc, and Jared. He knew without having to be told that Jamie must not be allowed anywhere near these proceedings.
Melanie would have to give that goodbye for me. I couldn't face that, not with Jamie. I didn't care if it was cowardly of me. I wouldn't do it.
Just one blue lamp, one dim circle of light on the stone floor. We sat on the edge of the ring of light; I was alone, the four men facing me. Jeb had even brought his gun-as if it were a gavel and would make this more official.
The smell of sulfur brought back the painful days of my mourning; there were some memories that I would not regret losing when I was gone.
"How is she?" I asked Doc urgently as they settled in, before they could get started. This tribunal was a waste of my small store of time. I was worried about more important things.
"Which one?" he responded in a weary voice.
I stared at him for a few seconds, and then my eyes grew wide. "Sunny's gone? Already?"
"Kyle thought it was cruel to make her suffer longer. She was... unhappy."
"I wish I could have said goodbye," I murmured to myself. "And good luck. How is Jodi?"
"No response yet."
"The Healer's body?"
"Trudy took her away. I think they went to get her something to eat. They're working on finding a temporary name she likes, so we can call her something besides the body." He smiled wryly.
"She'll be fine. I'm sure she will," I said, trying to believe the words. "And Jodi, too. It will all work out."
No one called me on my lies. They knew I was saying this for myself.
Doc sighed. "I don't want to be away from Jodi long. She might need something."
"Right," I agreed. "Let's get this over with." The quicker the better. Because it didn't matter what was said here; Doc had agreed to my terms. And yet there was some stupid part of me that hoped... hoped that there was a solution that would make everything perfect and let me stay with Ian and Mel with Jared in a way that absolutely no one would suffer for. Best to crush that impossible hope quickly.
"Okay," Jeb said. "Wanda, what's your side?"
"I'm giving Melanie back." Firm, short-no reasons to argue against.
"Ian, what's yours?"
"We need Wanda here."
Firm, short-he was copying me.
Jeb nodded to himself. "That's a tricky one. Wanda, why should I agree with you?"
"If it were you, you'd want your body back. You can't deny Melanie that."
"Ian?" Jeb asked.
"We have to look at the greater good, Jeb. Wanda's already brought us more health and security than we've ever had. She's vital to the survival of our community-of the entire human race. One person can't stand in the way of that."
He's right.
Nobody asked you.
Jared spoke up. "Wanda, what does Mel say?"
Ha, Mel said.
I stared into Jared's eyes, and the strangest thing happened. All the melting and melding I had just been through was shoved aside, into the smallest part of my body, the little corner that I took up physically. The rest of me yearned toward Jared with the same desperate, half-crazed hunger I'd felt since the first time I'd seen him here. This body