Fool - By Christopher Moore Page 0,23
her lips, then, in an instant, she had pushed my hand away and moved out of the light.
"Don't hide," said I. "Please don't hide."
"Fat lot of choice I have about whether I hide or not. I live in a bloody tomb."
I didn't know what to say. Never before had she complained about her choice to become the anchoress of Dog Snogging, even if other expressions of her faith seemed - well - abstract.
"I mean don't hide from me. Let me see you."
"You want to see? You want to see?"
I nodded.
"Give me your candles."
She had me hand four lit candles through the arrow loop. Whenever I performed for her she had me set them in holders around the outer chamber so she could see me dance, or juggle, or do acrobatics, but never had she asked for more than one candle in her own chamber. She placed the candles around her chamber and for the first time I could see the stone pallet where she slept on a mattress of straw, her meager possessions laid out on a heavy table, and Thalia, standing there in a tattered linen frock.
"Look," she said. She pulled her frock over her head and dropped it on the floor.
She was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. She looked younger than I had imagined, thin, but womanly - her face was that of a mischievous Madonna, as if carved by a sculptor inspired more by desire than the divine. Her hair was long and the color of buckskin, catching the candlelight as if a single ray of sunlight might make it explode in golden fire. I felt a heat rise in my face, and another kind of rise in my trousers. I was excited and confused and ashamed all at once, and I turned my back on the arrow loop and cried out.
"No!"
Suddenly, she was right behind me, and I felt her hand on my shoulder, then rubbing my neck.
"Pocket. Sweet Pocket, don't. It's all right."
"I feel like the Devil and the Virgin are doing battle in my body. I didn't know you were like that."
"Like a woman, you mean?"
Her hand was warm and steady, kneading the muscles in my shoulder through the cross in the wall and I leaned into it. I wanted to turn and look, I wanted to run out of the chamber, I wanted to be asleep, or just waking - ashamed that the Devil had visited me in the night with a damp dream of temptation.
"You know me, Pocket. I'm your friend."
"But you are the anchoress."
"I'm Thalia, your friend, who loves you. Turn around, Pocket."
And I did.
"Give me your hand," said she.
And I did.
She put it on her body, and she put her hands on mine, and pressed against the cold stone. Through the cross in the wall, I discovered a new universe - of Thalia's body, of my body, of love, of passion, of escape - and it was a damn sight better than bloody chants and juggling. When the bell rang for vespers we fell away from the cross, spent and gasping, and we began to laugh. Oh, and I had chipped a tooth.
"One for the Devil, then, love?" said Thalia.
When I arrived with the anchoress's supper the next afternoon she was waiting with her face pressed nearly through the center of the arrow cross - she looked like one of the angel-faced gargoyles that flanked the main doors of Dog Snogging, except they always seemed to be weeping and she was grinning. "So, didn't go to confession today, did you?"
I shuddered. "No, mum, I worked in the scriptorium most of the day."
"Pocket, I think I would prefer you not call me mum, if it's not too much to ask. Given the new level of our friendship it seems - oh, I don't know - unsavory."
"Yes, m - uh - mistress."
"Mistress I can work with. Now, pass me my supper and see if you can fit your face in the opening the way that I have."
Thalia's cheekbones were wedged in the arrow loop, which was little wider than my hand.
"Doesn't that hurt?" I'd been finding abrasions on my arms and various bits all day from our adventure the night before.
"It's not the flaying of St. Bart, but, yes, it stings a bit. You can't confess what we did, or what we do, love? You know that, right?"
"Then am I going to have to go to hell?"
"Well - " She pulled back, rolled her eyes as if searching the