keep my body relaxed. Addy was freaked out enough, the last thing she needed was witnessing me losing my shit.
“How’d he make that clear?”
Her gaze shifted to the side and she quietly answered, “Two days after he broke up with me, I went by his barracks. He was leaving the next day. I thought I had one more shot at getting him back. But he didn’t answer.”
The “he” was emphasized in a way that told me someone had answered.
“Who did?”
Addy shrugged but the hurt that raced across her face nullified her nonchalance.
“Some blonde wrapped up in a sheet. I was still standing at the door speechless when Jake came out of the bathroom wearing nothing but a towel. He looked at me, glanced at the woman then smiled. I was still too stunned to move. Jake however was not, he came to the door and asked me what I’d expected. When I didn’t answer, he explained he was leaving the next day and hadn’t had a decent fuck in months. That’s when I came unstuck and left.”
Jesus Christ, the asshole was stupider than I’d thought.
“Adalynn—”
“I forgot that part,” she whispered.
“What part?”
“The part where I gave him my virginity and he threw it in my face. The part where he humiliated me. Today when I saw him, I was so surprised, I didn’t remember. I’d shoved it down deep so I’d forget. When I agreed to go to lunch with him, I didn’t remember how I felt standing there mortified and hurt.”
Irrational jealousy reared and my chest tightened. Addy had given that asshole her virginity. What the fuck was wrong with that douchebag?
“Baby, listen to me—”
“He was right, he hadn’t had a decent fuck in months.”
There were so many things wrong with what she’d said—most importantly was her thinking he was right about anything. Next up was her cursing. Addy very rarely cussed, and hearing her say fuck in reference to sex made my stomach roil. A man didn’t fuck Addy, he made love to her. It might not be sweet and gentle but in no way would it be fucking.
“He was not right about anything.”
Something ugly filled the cab of my truck and it was coming from Addy. The sadness in her eyes had evaporated but something worse took its place—shame.
What the fuck?
“Baby—”
“He was right. It was bad. I was bad. I didn’t know what I was doing and it was awkward. I was a fumbling twenty-year-old virgin for God’s sake. It was pathetic and embarrassing.”
“Addy—”
“And you wanna know how I know he was right?” she asked, and my gut clenched tighter. Before I could tell her I absolutely did not want to hear more, she answered her own question. “I couldn’t even have an orgasm.”
Jesus.
I didn’t want to hear this.
“And, that’s not all. It was the same exact way with the second guy, only worse. It was horrible. Beyond awkward and embarrassing.”
I’d heard enough.
“Adalynn—”
“So after that, why bother trying again? It’s obviously me. I’m shit in bed and—”
Yeah, I’d heard enough about her being with other men. Jealousy didn’t cover the emotion that was coursing through my muscles.
“Enough,” I ground out and Addy jerked in her seat. “Straight up, Adalynn, neither of those idiots knew what the fuck they were doing.”
“You can’t know that.”
“Yeah, Addy, I can and I do. They were shit in bed, not you.”
“You’re wrong,” she muttered.
I lost the battle. I’d fought hard, but I’d lost the last thread of my control. My hand shot out, hooked Addy around the back of her neck, and I pulled her toward me as I shifted closer. I didn’t stop until our mouths were touching. It took a moment for the shock to wear off and some of the stiffness to ease. When it did, I made another decision, although at the time I didn’t understand the enormity of my next move. I took advantage of her surprise and licked the seam of her lips. Her mouth opened, my tongue slid inside, and she purred.
It was the mew that vibrated against my tongue that spurred me on. It was the innocence of the sound that clinched the deal.
Addy tasted great. Smelled great. Felt great.
All of it so fucking good. I slanted my head and took the kiss deeper. She purred again and this time, her hands moved and shoved under my tee. My hand slid up into her hair. Soft. So damn soft. I let my fingers glide through the strands before I gathered a fistful and tilted her