be a not so great idea the minute I walked in, and then my smile about Brady and Simon froze on my face. Shit. I’d been doing so well.
Stryker’s hand rested lightly on my back as we went inside. “I hope I’m supposed to ask you if you’re okay tonight, because I’m going to. Are you okay?”
“Not really. But keep that to yourself. Please.” I looked over my shoulder at him and met his eyes. He toyed with his lip ring and that made me think about kissing him.
“Sure thing.”
We pushed three small tables together to get all of us in. Simon wouldn’t settle for us being in separate booths. The waitress turned out to be a girl from my anthro class, but I couldn’t remember her name until I read “Carrie” on her nametag.
It was complete chaos with everyone talking at once and she looked overwhelmed. Of course they had all engineered it so I had Stryker on one side and Lottie on the other. Trish was right across from me and looking grumpy about the fact that she was the only one who didn’t have “someone”‘ Stryker’s foot kept bumping against mine under the table and I knew it was deliberate, so I banged my foot against his, only harder. I had heels on, so if worse came to worse, I could always stab him with one.
It was completely different from the last time I’d been here with Zack, and I tried to relax and let myself sink into the moment.
“Be nice,” he muttered at me when Carrie brought our drinks. He ordered a beer since he was the only one who was old enough. “Want a sip?”
“No, thanks.”
“So I think we should toast,” Simon said, standing up. Brady tried to get him to sit down since the entire place was staring at us, but he wouldn’t.
“I think we need to toast to friends and good people and love and…anyone?”
“New beginnings,” Will said as he stared at Audrey.
“To Rumi and escapes and Pop Tarts,” Lottie said, winking at Zan.
“Okay, sure. Anyone else?” Simon said, looking around.
“To drugs and sex and rock and roll,” Stryker said, raising his beer mug.
“I second that,” Trish said, raising her glass. Stryker put his other hand on my leg and squeezed.
“To assholes getting put back in prison where they belong,” I said. Everyone cheered at that and we drank.
I was pretty sure the restaurant was regretting letting us sit down because we were the loudest group in the place. Volume control wasn’t one of our strong suits as a group.
I hated to admit it, but Lottie had the right idea. It was impossible not to smile and laugh when Simon started doing impressions of Will and then Lottie and when Stryker kept making silly little comments that only I could hear.
“Will is going to touch Audrey’s hair in three, two, one. See?” He was right. Audrey blushed as Will made sure her hair didn’t fall into her pizza.
“And Simon is going to kiss Brady in three, two, one.” There was a collective ‘aw,’ when they did kiss. Even Trish had a wistful look on her face.
“How are you doing?” It was a different question than asking if I was okay.
“I can truthfully say that I’m enjoying myself,” I said.
“I can tell.”
“Don’t.” He’d been walking his hands up and down my leg. Not in a sexual way, but in a way that told me he was aware that I was sitting next to him and he wanted me to be aware of it, too. I’d told him to not be an asshole, but that didn’t mean I wanted him to treat me like…like we were dating.
“I have no idea what you’re talking about,” he said, marching his fingers as if they were feet.
“Stryker, stop it.” I made sure I wasn’t looking at him when I said it so no one would get any ideas.
“Fine.” He removed his hand and started drumming it on the table with the rhythm of the song that played over the speakers hidden behind tacky plastic plants that were supposed to look like olive vines. “Then I’ll tell you that it’s not just the sex.”
“What?” Everyone else was distracted by Will and Lottie team-telling a story about how they were when they were growing up and she knew he’d fallen out of a tree. That twindar really freaked me out.
I looked up to meet his eyes. He’d been waiting for that.
“It might not just about the sex, although that is