exploring the outside of me and quickly working me up to a stupor. My breaths came in quickened gasps, and my mind whirled as I focused on nothing else but the sensation of Ethan stroking me.
His fingers pressed more firmly on my core, and I couldn’t hold it back anymore. Desperate moans elicited from my mouth as I rode pulse after pulse of exhilaration, defying gravity over and over.
As I was climaxing, Ethan stuck a finger inside. I gasped, and tears came to my eyes at how amazing it felt. He rubbed at the inside of me, skimming his teeth on my neck as he kissed the skin there. Pinpricks of pleasure ran throughout, and my orgasm continued as I clenched around his fingers, diving in and demanding more.
I spread my legs wider, offering him more room. Ethan slipped two fingers in. He began fucking me with his finger, and I swear to the gods, it was better than anything I could’ve ever imagined. My wings beat faster and faster with each thrust of his hand, and we rose even higher.
For the first time in my life, I loved my body. I loved what it could do and what it could achieve. Sure, there were parts that didn’t work right— a lot of parts— and there was a lot of pain and a lot of bad. But I loved it, because it could do incredible things on the ice, and it could make me feel this way while Ethan was showing his passion for me.
“I love you, onawilke,” Ethan said, and his voice broke. If it didn’t send my heart racing even faster than before.
“I love you, Ethan.” Those words sent me into insanity. When I was going to come a second time, I couldn’t hold back. I shoved my hand in his pants and gave his cock a few quick jerks. Ethan was so hard that my touch made him go crazy. We spun into an orgasm together, and the stars flashed and the planets aligned as my wings twirled us in a circle, our bodies synchronizing in a symphony of halos and light.
I didn’t stop coming until my body was spent, and Ethan’s mouth had kissed away all sensibility. He pulled his lips away from mine— his eyes were dazed as we struggled to process what had just happened between us.
I trailed my mouth against his ear and whispered, “Was that my apology gift?”
Ethan smirked. “It might’ve been.”
The thought that Ethan Nowak had been meaning to apologize to me for his drunkenness last night by fingering me totally turned me on. Fuck, he was so sexy. And he’d been thinking about feeling me up all day. What a turn-on.
What was more, we said we loved each other. The big L word.
And there was no taking it back. Things were clear now. No matter how hard we tried to bury our feelings, they would always rise to the light.
The windfarers had ended their mating dance, and were looking at us. Okay, it was kind of weird that they were around to watch, but I think they were too busy flying around to pay much attention to the kinky shit we’d been doing. I returned Ethan to the back of his windfarer before I mounted my own. The pink windfarer gave a low noise, and I patted her back.
As we flew back toward the garden, Ethan was contemplative. “That was powerful magic, onawilke. I’m surprised you had the strength.”
“I don’t know.” I shrugged. “I struggle with magic in class, but sometimes, I can do whatever I want. It’s as if it depends on the spell feeling natural. What I just did— it took no effort at all.”
“That’s what illusion magic is. Believing in yourself,” he said. “Confidence is key for everything an Arcanea does.”
“I suppose... I didn’t know I couldn’t do it, so it didn’t stop me from trying.”
Ethan nodded introspectively. The windfarers flew us back to Arcanea University. They landed in front of the doors to the dormitories, then bowed their heads to us before they took off into the sky.
Ethan’s thumb rubbed the back of my hand as he whispered, “It’s late. You have practice tomorrow, onawilke.”
It was the first time I despised getting up early to go ice skating. I wanted to spend the night with Ethan— I wanted to enjoy the feel of his hands on me once more.
As Ethan and I parted ways at my dormitory, I’d reasoned that I had failed. My goal was