He would go, and she couldn’t follow. Because however cold Dr. Yang had been to her, there was still the fact that Destiny had a role to play. She couldn’t abandon that without knowing more. And to know more, she would have to go back.
She cast a sideways glance at Milo. He was so beautiful he made her chest ache. She wanted him. If she had to go back, then wasn’t it only fair that she got to experience life—and love—first? Even if that love wasn’t returned. That was all she had ever really wanted. She stopped walking and turned to face him. He was watching her warily, and she gave in to temptation and reached out and stroked her finger down the scar on his cheek. Then rested her hand against his chest, feeling the thud of his heart beneath her palm.
“I’d like you to kiss me again,” she said.
His eyes narrowed. “Not a good idea.”
“Why?”
“Because you want more than I’m willing to give.”
“You don’t know what I want.” Anger flashed through her and then was gone. “How can you know, when I don’t know what I want?”
“Right now, you need a friend.”
“With benefits?”
He snorted. “What have you been reading?”
“It doesn’t matter.” She started walking again. “I have a feeling that things are going to go horribly wrong. I don’t know how or why, but I just want to experience as much as I can before that happens. Don’t worry, I don’t expect you to fall in love with me or anything. I don’t think I’m very lovable. But would it be so hard to make love to me?”
She heard him swear under his breath and peered back at him. He was running his hands through his hair. “You deserve more.”
She stopped again and swung around to face him, hands on her hips, eyes glaring. “Why? What makes me so special? And what if I don’t want more?” She just wanted sex for goodness’ sake. Men were supposed to jump at the chance. What the hell was wrong with her? “Maybe Dylan would make love to me if I asked him nicely.”
“Don’t even go there.”
Ha. He didn’t want her, but he didn’t want anyone else to have her either. “Am I so…unappealing?”
“No.” He gritted his teeth. “I told you—I don’t do relationships.”
“And I’m not asking for one. I don’t do relationships, either. I just want sex.” Gosh, she sounded…whiny. And desperate. How to make a man run in the opposite direction. She needed to read more books.
“Jesus. I—” He paused and raised his head, his eyes narrowing. Then he moved fast, lunging for her and shoving her to the ground, landing on top of her, and then they were rolling down a short bank. They came to an abrupt stop at the bottom, with Milo on top of her.
“What—?”
“Shhh,” he muttered.
She listened and could hear it now, a soft whirring sound that was coming closer.
He shifted his body so he covered her completely and she closed her eyes and held her breath. She had no clue what was happening, but at least it had gotten Milo on top of her. She lay unmoving, her brain processing the feel of his hard body on hers. Burrowing her face in his shoulder, she breathed in, her nostrils filling with the hot spicy scent of him. Intoxicating. She might have swooned if she hadn’t already been flat on her back.
She wasn’t sure how long they lay there, but long after, the whirring had passed them by and faded to nothing. Milo pushed himself up on his elbows. The position brought his lower body harder against hers, and a wave of elation washed through her as she felt the hardness of his erection pressing into her thigh.
He wanted her. And he could have her. She pushed her hips against him then blinked and gazed up into his silver eyes. They narrowed on her, wandering over her face, settling on her lips, which she parted slightly.
“Fuck it,” he muttered and lowered his head and kissed her.
His mouth was hard, his lips firm, his tongue hot as it pushed inside, filling her. Heat flooded her body, tingles racing across her skin and settling in her belly, between her thighs, her nipples. His mouth left hers and she wanted to scream at him not to stop. Never to stop. Before she could get the words out, he was kissing the side of her neck, his teeth grazing her skin, then nipping and licking and her nipples