hadn’t showered in days, and his shirt was stained. “You still playing Rambo?” he asked, his words slurred. “You look like you’ve been working out.”
“Yeah,” I said, not wanting to go into it. “What are you doing these days?”
“Hanging out, mainly. For the last couple of weeks, anyway. I was working at Quick Stop until a couple of weeks ago, but the owner was a real ass.”
“Still living at home?”
“Of course,” he said, sounding almost proud of the fact. He tipped the bottle and took a long drink, then focused on my arms. “You look good. You been working out?” he asked again.
“A little,” I said, knowing he didn’t remember he’d already asked.
“You’re big.”
I couldn’t think of anything to say. Toby took another drink.
“Hey, there’s a party tonight at Mandy’s,” he said. “You remember Mandy, right?”
Yeah, I remembered. A girl from my past who lasted less than a weekend. Toby was still going on.
“Her parents are up in New York or someplace like that, and it should be a real banger. We’re just having a little pre-party to get us in the proper mood. You want to join us?”
He motioned over his shoulder toward four guys at a corner table littered with three empty pitchers. I recognized two from my past life, but the others were strangers.
“I can’t,” I said, “I’m supposed to be meeting my dad for dinner. Thanks, though.”
“Blow him off. It’s going to be a blast. Kim’ll be there.”
Another woman from my past, another reminder that made me wince inside. I could barely stomach the person I used to be.
“I can’t,” I said, shaking my head. I stood, leaving the mostly full glass in front of me. “I promised. And he’s letting me stay with him. You know how it is.”
That made sense to him, and he nodded. “Then let’s get together this weekend. A bunch of us are heading up to Ocracoke to go surfing.”
“Maybe,” I said, knowing there wasn’t a chance.
“Your dad still have the same number?”
“Yeah,” I said.
I left, sure that he’d never call and that I’d never return to Leroy’s.
On my way home, I picked up steaks for dinner, along with a bag of salad, some dressing, and a couple of potatoes. Without a car, it wasn’t easy carrying the bag along with my surfboard all the way back home, but I didn’t really mind the walk. I’d done it for years, and my shoes were a whole lot more comfortable than the boots I’d grown used to.
Once home, I dragged the grill from the garage, along with a bag of briquettes and lighter fluid. The grill was dusty, as if it hadn’t been used for years. I set it up on the back porch and emptied out the charcoal dust before hosing off the cobwebs and letting it dry in the sun. Inside, I added some salt, pepper, and garlic powder to the steaks, wrapped the potatoes in foil and put them in the oven, then poured the salad in a bowl. Once the grill was dry, I got the briquettes going and set the table out back.
Dad walked in just as I was adding the steaks to the grill.
“Hey, Dad,” I said over my shoulder. “I thought I’d make us dinner tonight.”
“Oh,” he said. It seemed to take him an instant to grasp the fact that he wouldn’t be cooking for me. “Okay,” he finally added.
“How do you like your steak?”
“Medium,” he said. He continued to stand near the sliding glass door.
“It looks like you haven’t used the grill since I left,” I said. “But you should. There’s nothing better than a grilled steak. My mouth was watering all the way home.”
“I’m going to go change my clothes.”
“Steaks will be done in about ten minutes.”
When he left I went back into the kitchen, took out the potatoes and the bowl of salad—along with dressing, butter, and steak sauce—and put them on the table. I heard the patio door slide open, and my dad emerged carrying two glasses of milk, looking like a cruise ship tourist. He was dressed in shorts, black socks, tennis shoes, and a flowered Hawaiian shirt. His legs were painfully white, as if he hadn’t worn shorts in years. If ever. Thinking back, I’m not sure I’d ever seen him in shorts. I did my best to pretend he looked normal.
“Just in time,” I said, returning to the grill. I loaded both plates with steaks and set one in front of him.