Chatsworth’s eyes had gleamed. Johnny had just touched on the linchpin of his own personal philosophy—probably the linchpin for the beliefs of most self-made men. “Nothing succeeds like success,” he said.
“Well, yes. Something like that.”
“How long would it take you to get a New Hampshire certificate?”
“No longer than it takes them to process my application. Two weeks, maybe.”
“Then you could start on the twentieth?”
Johnny blinked. “You mean I’m hired?”
“If you want the job, you’re hired. You can stay in the guest house, it’ll keep the goddam relatives at bay this summer, not to mention Chuck’s friends—and I want him to really buckle down. I’ll pay you six hundred dollars a month, not a king’s ransom, but if Chuck gets along, I’ll pay you a substantial bonus. Substantial.”
Chatsworth removed his glasses and rubbed a hand across his face. “I love my boy, Mr. Smith. I only want the best for him. Help us out a little if you can.”
“I’ll try.”
Chatsworth put his glasses back on and picked up Johnny’s resumé again. “You haven’t taught for a helluva long time. Didn’t agree with you?”
Here it comes, Johnny thought.
“It agreed,” he said, “but I was in an accident.”
Chatsworth’s eyes had gone to the scars on Johnny’s neck where the atrophied tendons had been partially repaired. “Car crash?”
“Yes.”
“Bad one?”
“Yes.”
“You seem fine now,” Chatsworth said. He picked up the resumé, slammed it into a drawer and, amazingly, that had been the end of the questions. So after five years Johnny was teaching again, although his student load was only one.
2
“ ‘As for me, who had i ... indirectly br ... brog ... brought his death upon him, he took my hand with a weak grip and smiled his for ... forgiveness up to me. It was a hard moment, and I went away feeling that I had done more harm in the world than I could ever ma ... make up to it.’ ”
Chuck snapped the book closed. “There. Last one in the pool’s a green banana.”
“Hold it a minute, Chuck.”
“Ahhhhhhh ...” Chuck sat down again, heavily, his face composing itself into what Johnny already thought of as his now the questions expression. Long-suffering good humor predominated, but beneath it he could sometimes see another Chuck: sullen, worried, and scared. Plenty scared. Because it was a reader’s world, the unlettered of America were dinosaurs lumbering down a blind alley, and Chuck was smart enough to know it. And he was plenty afraid of what might happen to him when he got back to school this fall.
“Just a couple of questions, Chuck.”
“Why bother? You know I won’t be able to answer them.”
“Oh yes. This time you’ll be able to answer them all.”
“I can never understand what I read, you ought to know that by now.” Chuck looked morose and unhappy. “I don’t even know what you stick around for, unless it’s the chow.”
“You’ll be able to answer these questions because they’re not about the book.”
Chuck glanced up. “Not about the book? Then why ask em? I thought ...”
“Just humor me, okay?”
Johnny’s heart was pounding hard, and he was not totally surprised to find that he was scared. He had been planning this for a long time, waiting for just the right confluence of circumstances. This was as close as he was ever going to get. Mrs. Chatsworth was not hovering around anxiously, making Chuck that much more nervous. None of his buddies were splashing around in the pool, making him feel self-conscious about reading aloud like a backward fourth grader. And most important, his father, the man Chuck wanted to please above all others in the world, was not here. He was in Boston at a New England Environmental Commission meeting on water pollution.
From Edward Stanney’s An Overview of Learning Disabilities:
“The subject, Rupert J., was sitting in the third row of a movie theater. He was closest to the screen by more than six rows, and was the only one in a position to observe that a small fire had started in the accumulated litter on the floor. Rupert J. stood up and cried, ‘F-F-F-F-F—’while the people behind him shouted for him to sit down and be quiet
“ ‘How did that make you feel?’ I asked Rupert J.
“ ‘I could never explain in a thousand years how it made me feel,’ he answered ‘I was scared, but even more than being scared, I was frustrated. I felt inadequate, not fit to be a member of the human race. The stuttering