why he never seemed to date much. It wasn’t for want of offers, I’d been able to observe many times.
Dawn had been especially aggressive.
That evening I couldn’t think of anything that pleased me.
I began wondering if Bubba was the hitman—hitvampire?—Bill had called when he wanted Uncle Bartlett bumped off. I wondered why Bill had chosen such a dim-witted creature to guard me.
Every book I picked up seemed wrong, somehow. Every television show I tried to watch seemed completely ridiculous. I tried to read my Time and became incensed at the determination to commit suicide that possessed so many nations. I pitched the magazine across the room.
My mind scrabbled around like a squirrel trying to get out of a cage. It couldn’t light on anything or be comfortable anywhere.
When the phone rang, I jumped a foot.
“Hello?” I said harshly.
“Jason’s here now,” Terry Bellefleur said. “He wants to buy you a drink.”
I thought uneasily about going out to the car, now that it was dark; about coming home to an empty house, at least a house I would have to hope was empty. Then I scolded myself because, after all, there would be someone watching the house, someone very strong, if very brainless.
“Okay, I’ll be there in a minute,” I said.
Terry simply hung up. Mr. Chatterbox.
I pulled on a denim skirt and a yellow T-shirt and, looking both ways, crossed the yard to my car. I’d left on every outside light, and I unlocked my car and scooted inside quick as a wink. Once inside the car, I relocked my door.
This was sure no way to live.
I AUTOMATICALLY PARKED in the employee lot when I got to Merlotte’s. There was a dog pawing around the Dumpster, and I patted him on the head when I went in. We had to call the pound about once a week to come get some stray or dumped dogs, so many of them pregnant it just made me sick.
Terry was behind the bar.
“Hey,” I said, looking around. “Where’s Jason?”
“He ain’t here,” Terry said. “I haven’t seen him this evening. I told you so on the phone.”
I gaped at him. “But you called me after that and said he had come in.”
“No, I didn’t.”
We stared at each other. Terry was having one of his bad nights, I could tell. His head was writhing around on the inside with the snakes of his army service and his battle with alcohol and drugs. On the outside, you could see he was flushed and sweating despite the air conditioning, and his movements were jerky and clumsy. Poor Terry.
“You really didn’t?” I asked, in as neutral a tone as possible.
“Said so, didn’t I?” His voice was belligerent.
I hoped none of the bar patrons gave Terry trouble tonight.
I backed out with a conciliatory smile.
The dog was still at the back door. He whined when he saw me.
“Are you hungry, fella?” I asked. He came right up to me, without the cringing I’d come to expect from strays. As he moved more into the light, I saw that this dog had been recently abandoned, if his glossy coat was any indicator. He was a collie, at least mostly. I started to step into the kitchen to ask whoever was cooking if they had any scraps for this guy, but then I had a better idea.
“I know bad ol’ Bubba is at the house, but maybe you could come in the house with me,” I said in that baby voice I use with animals when I think nobody’s listening. “Can you pee outside, so we don’t make a mess in the house? Hmmm, boy?”
As if he’d understood me, the collie marked the corner of the Dumpster.
“Good fella! Come for a ride?” I opened my car door, hoping he wouldn’t get the seats too dirty. The dog hesitated. “Come on, sugar, I’ll give you something good to eat when we get to my place, okay?” Bribery was not necessarily a bad thing.
After a couple more looks and a thorough sniffing of my hands, the dog jumped onto the passenger seat and sat looking out the windshield like he’d committed himself to this adventure.
I told him I appreciated it, and I tickled his ears. We set off, and the dog made it clear he was used to riding.
“Now, when we get to the house, buddy,” I told the collie firmly, “we’re gonna make tracks for the front door, okay? There’s an ogre in the woods who’d just love to eat you up.”