Darius the Great Deserves Better - Adib Khorram Page 0,85
over now, and soon enough wrestling would consume all his time.
Were all the guys going to ditch me now?
I didn’t want to go back to being lonely Darius, whose only real friend was half a world away.
I wiped my eyes.
Coach Bentley leaned across the aisle. “You okay, Darius?”
“Yeah.” I sniffed. “Just gonna miss this is all.”
“Me too.” She smiled. “You did great this season. And the next one will be here before you know it.”
“Thanks, Coach.”
* * *
I cleaned out my locker, which was mostly just spare kit, extra deodorant, and a couple crumpled papers I had forgotten about at various points during the season.
(I didn’t really get the point and purpose of paperwork.)
The guys were all bro-hugging each other, the kind where you shake hands, do a one-armed hug with your hands smooshed between you, and slap the other guy’s back. For some, like Gabe and Jaden and Christian, it was their last season at Chapel Hill. I saw Gabe wipe his eyes a couple times, and Jaden actually gave me a regular hug instead of a bro-hug.
“It’s been awesome, man,” he said. “I’m glad we got to be friends.”
“Me too. I’m sad it’s over.”
“Over?” Jaden cocked his head to the side. “You’re stuck with me now. Fractional Bros for life.”
“Does that make us cousins or step-bros?”
“Don’t make me do math after a game.” He jostled my shoulder. “Seriously, though. Let’s hang out. I’ll teach you to actually play Mario Kart instead of driving off the side.”
I almost laughed at that.
Almost.
“I’d like that.”
On our way out, Coach Bentley had us line up, and she shook our hands and congratulated us on a season well played.
We still had our big post season party to look forward to, when we’d all dress up, and Coach would give out awards for Most Valuable Player and Most Improved and announce next year’s captain.
Supposedly, the food was super good, because Coach Bentley was friends with a chef at one of the fancy restaurants downtown, one that was inside a hotel but not run by the hotel, which I guess makes a difference in the world of fancy downtown restaurants.
“Proud of you, Darius,” she said as she shook my hand. “Chin up.”
I blinked away my tears and nodded. “Thanks, Coach.”
* * *
The sun was setting over the Student Lot, painting Chapel Hill’s beige walls in fiery pink. The clouds were rolling in, the air chill with the promise of rain.
Cyprian Cusumano was sitting on the curb, with his elbows on his knees and his chin in his hand.
I flopped onto the ground next to him, tucked my cold hands into the pockets of my hoodie, and stared up at the clouds. I didn’t think I could look Chip in the eye.
“You didn’t have to do that.”
Chip laid back and sprawled next to me.
“I think I did.” His voice was low and soft. “That’s the guy I want to be. And I don’t think I have been, very much, before.”
I angled my head a little closer to him. “How come?”
“I don’t know.” He drummed his legs with his fingers. “I’ve known Trent for as long as I can remember. When my parents were going through their divorce, he was the one who let me sleep over at his house so I didn’t have to hear all the fighting. And after Evie was born, he was the one who taught me how to take care of her. To change diapers and stuff. You should see him with her. He’s like a completely different guy.”
Chip thumped the ground with his fist. “He was the only guy who ever saw me cry. Who let me feel like it was okay to cry in front of someone. Until you.”
Trent was Chip’s Sohrab.
“So now what?”
“I don’t know. I don’t want to lose him. But you were right. He’s kind of an a-hole. And I want him to be better than that.” Chip blew out a breath. “I want me to be better than that.”
“I think maybe you already are.”
Chip turned to face me. His eyes were misty.
“I really am sorry. I messed everything up.”
“Not everything,” I said.
And then I said, “I really missed being your friend.”