didn't come home with you. Are things..." He trailed off, raising his brows to imply the rest.
I rolled my eyes, shifting my position to rest my cheek on my folded arms. "It was a business day," I muttered, even though my mind automatically went to that moment in my office when Zed had come so close to kissing me... then walked away. "He stayed to oversee the DNA testing, make sure no one tampered with the samples or results."
Lucas nodded his understanding. "I see. So you didn't..."
I gave him a slow smile. "Are you asking if I fucked Zed in my office, Lucas?"
He didn't even look slightly embarrassed, just gave a one-shouldered shrug.
I rolled my eyes. "No. We're not... We didn't. I'm just not there yet. We've got shit to work through, and then there's Chase..." My excuses sounded lame even to me. Lucas just arched a brow, so I flipped the tables on him. "Why? Would you have been upset if we had screwed?" Because I could have sworn there’d been a touch of relief in his eyes when I said no.
Lucas grinned. "Upset? No. No way. Not with how I know you feel for him. But jealous? Oh my god, yes. Every time you go to Cass, it takes everything I've got not to march in there and steal you back. Drives me fucking insane."
His cheeks pinked as he admitted this, and I raised my head to peer at him in surprise. Of all of them, Lucas had taken the whole sharing idea the most comfortably, maybe because he considered himself the newcomer, despite being the first one between my thighs.
"So why don't you?" I murmured, already feeling the warmth of arousal as my imagination wandered.
His brow raised. "Why don't I... what? Bust into your room while you're with Cass? Well shit, for one thing, that would be rude as hell and totally contradictory to everything I said I was okay with in this relationship." He swiped a hand over his face, giving me a rueful smile. "For another, I don't fancy Cass bashing my head into a wall for cockblocking him. Grumpy Cat is in a foul mood on the best of days; I badly don't want to see him if he got interrupted mid-fuck."
I couldn't help laughing at that imagery. But I knew something Lucas didn't: Cass had been perfectly content to let Zed join us that night by the fire.
"What if he didn't get angry?" I suggested in a low, seductive whisper. "What if he let you join us?"
Lucas's brows rose even higher, and his cheeks flushed with deeper color. "Like... like a threesome?" His voice was tight with surprise, his eyes locked on mine like he was trying to gauge what the "right" response to that would be. I knew full well that I was his first, but goddamn, I was curious if that would ever be a possibility.
I nodded, biting the edge of my lip.
He cleared his throat, looking to the ceiling for a moment before returning his gaze to mine. "Have you... um... have you ever had a threesome before?"
My body stiffened, my spine crackling with ice. I should have thought this through before suggesting it. Still, I owed Lucas my honesty, and he'd more than proven he could handle anything I said.
Swallowing heavily, I nodded. "Not..." My voice was rough, and I tried again. "Not willingly." Because I didn't consider that little show for Zed a three-way. Nor did I count the other day when he played with my clit while Cass fucked me. No... the real threesomes—and more—that I'd been involved in were deeply entangled in Chase's abuse.
Lucas didn't respond for a long moment, then he leaned down and kissed me softly. "I understand," he whispered, even though he really, truly didn't. No one did. Except maybe Zed... because he'd seen the tapes.
A deep shudder ran through me, the memories creeping through my mind like wet tar as I fought against curling into a fetal position and crying.
"I would give anything in this world to chase those demons out of your eyes, Hayden," Lucas told me in a soft, deeply sincere voice as he kissed my cheek. "Literally anything. A threesome would be the least of what I'd do."
I tilted my head, bringing my lips to his for a soft kiss, desperately trying to show him how much he meant to me with just my kiss alone. But it wasn't enough. It'd never be enough because being with Lucas gave