Claimed (The Lair of the Wolven #1) - J.R. Ward Page 0,112
are the biggest threat to everything.”
This was why she wasn’t going to stop him from leaving, Daniel thought. She was used to being alone.
“There are other places you could live,” he said. “Other jobs.”
“I know.” She took a deep breath. “And I will have to find one … God, this was not how I imagined everything coming to an end.”
“You said Candy left, too? Did she just quit?”
“She decided to take the afternoon off. After everything, why wouldn’t she. But whether or not she comes back tomorrow morning is anyone’s guess.”
He nodded. “I realize I’ve said this before, but I wish things were different.”
Lydia pointed at him with her fork. “Truer words have never been spoken.”
They fell silent for a while as she worked through what he’d made for her. When she was finished, he cleared her plate and fork and left her to drink the rest of her milk.
At the sink, he ran the water. “That package that was for Peter. Are you going to find out what’s on those disks?”
“No. I think I just need to give it to the sheriff and let him sort it out. What am I going to do, you know?”
“Yeah, I know—”
“You’re leaving tomorrow morning, aren’t you.”
As Lydia let the words out, she was aware of her whole body tensing like she was about to be hit by a car. And yet what was that thing they always said?
Don’t ask a question you didn’t want the answer to.
In this case, it was true, she didn’t want the answer. But she knew what it was.
“I’m going to be fine,” she said. Was that directed to him or herself? she wondered. “One thing life has taught me is that I’ll always be okay. One way or the other, I always have been.”
Daniel opened his mouth. Closed it. Opened it again.
“It’s all right.” She smiled a little. Or tried to. “It’s been a lot. I mean, I’m even committed to the Project, and I’m drowning in the drama. Someone just passing through like you are? I get it.”
“I wish things were different. Jesus, I’m just saying that over and over, aren’t I.”
“It’s okay.” She put her hand over her heart. “And again, I’m inclined to agree.”
There was another silence. Then he said, “You don’t have to pay me.”
“You worked the hours at the WSP, you deserve the money.”
“Nah. I’m good.”
Lydia looked to the window. Pulling back the mauve drape, she stared into the darkness—and wondered what was out there. And not in terms of a threat against herself. She wondered where he would go, where destiny would take him.
She already knew part of the answer to that.
Away from her was where destiny was taking him.
“It’s late,” she said to the window.
“It’s only eight-thirty,” he countered. “I believe it violates your nine p.m. rule to go to sleep now.”
“Wow, feels like four in the morning—”
The floor creaked next to her and she looked up. Daniel was standing over her, staring down from his great height.
“Will I ever forget your eyes?” she murmured.
Another question she already knew the answer to.
“I’m nothing special.” His shoulders lifted briefly. “Just a handyman.”
“So much more than that.”
Daniel put his hand out. “Come on. Let’s go upstairs.”
Letting the drape fall back into place, she got to her feet and slipped her hand in his. When they came to the steps to the second floor, he ushered her forward, all ladies-first. As she brushed by his body, she thought that the normal things that couples who lived together did were such a quiet joy. Brushing teeth at the same time over the sink. Changing into PJs together. Settling in and turning off the lights.
She wished she could have a lifetime of that with him.
Upstairs, they went to her room, not the guest room, but then he doubled back to go to the loo by himself. After she changed into PJs, he came back in and took the side of the bed closest to the door, plumping up the pillows and testing the mattress with his big palms. Leaving him to sort things of the bedding variety to his liking, she did her normal nightly routine down the hall at the sink—and when she returned to the room, she noticed that he’d moved his saddlebags in and put them right beside where he’d stretched out in the sheets.
That’s where his gun is, she thought as she pulled the covers back on the far side and slid in with him.