and the like. One of the cops was almost entirely in the boot; only his blue-grey-clad legs stuck out. For a moment Arnie hoped vaguely that they wouldn't find the under-compartment; then he dismissed the thought - it was just the childish part of him, the part he now wished burned away, because all that part of him did lately was hurt. They would find it. The quicker they found it, the quicker this nasty roadside scene would end.
As if some god had heard his wish and decided to grant it posthaste, the cop in the boot called triumphantly, 'Cigarettes!'
'All right,' the cop who had read the warrant said. 'Close it up.' He turned to Arnie and read him the Miranda warning. 'Do you understand your rights as I have read them to you?'
'Yes,' Arnie said.
'Do you want to make a statement?'
'No.'
'Get in the car, son. You're under arrest.'
I'm under arrest, Arnie thought, and almost brayed laughter, the thought was so foolish. This was all a dream and he would wake up soon. Under arrest. Being hustled to a State Police cruiser. People looking at him -
Desperate, childish tears, hot salt, welled up in his throat and closed it.
His chest hitched - once, twice.
The cop who had read him his rights touched his shoulder and Arnie shrugged it off with a kind of desperation. He felt that if he could get deep down inside himself quickly enough, he would be okay - but sympathy might drive him mad,
'Don't touch me!'
'You do it the way you want to do it, son,' the cop said, removing his hand. He opened the cruiser's rear door for Arnie and handed him in.
Do you cry in dreams? Of course you could - hadn't he read about people waking up from sad dreams with tears on their cheeks? But, dream or no dream, he wasn't going to cry.
Instead he would think of Christine. Not of his mother or father, not of Leigh or Will Darnell, not of Slawson - all the miserable shitters who had betrayed him.
He would think of Christine.
Arnie closed his eyes and leaned his pale, gaunt face, forward into his hands and did just that. And as always, thinking about Christine made things better. After a while he was able to straighten up and look out at the passing scenery and think about his position.
Michael Cunningham put the telephone back into its cradle slowly - with infinite care - as if to do less might cause it to explode and spray his upstairs study with jagged black hooks of shrapnel.
He sat back in the swivel chair behind his desk, on which there sat his IBM Correcting Selectric II typewriter, an ashtray with the blue-and-gold legend HORLICKS UNIVERSITY barely legible across the dirty bottom, and the manuscript of his third book, a study of the ironclads Monitor and Merrimac. He had been halfway through a page when the telephone rang. Now he flipped the paper release on the right side of the typewriter and pulled the page bonelessly out from under the roller, observing its slight curve clinically. He put it down on top of the manuscript, which was now little more than a jungle of pencilled-in corrections.
Outside, a cold wind whined around the house. The morning's cloudy warmth had given way to a frigid, clear December evening. The earlier melt had frozen tight, and his son was being held in Albany on charges of what amounted to smuggling: no Mr Cunningham it is not marijuana it is cigarettes, two hundred cartons of Winston cigarettes with no tax stamps.
From downstairs he could hear the whir of Regina's sewing machine. He would have to get up now, go to the door and open it, go down the hall to the stairs, walk down the stairs, walk into the dining room, then into the plant-lined little room that had once been a laundry but which was now a sewing room, and stand there while Regina looked up at him (she would be wearing her half-glasses for the close work), and say 'Regina, Arnie has been arrested by the New York State Police.'
Michael attempted to begin this process by getting up from his desk chair, but the chair seemed to sense he was temporarily off-guard. It swivelled and rolled backward on its casters at the same moment, and Michael had to clutch the edge of his desk to keep from failing. He slipped heavily back into the chair, heart thudding with painful rapidity in his chest.