Her hands supported her on the sheets. She had to trust him, and she knew that was his deliberate intent. He was showing her she did trust him, that her body did. He was in her mind. He would know how much she wanted this. He would know the moment she didn’t like something he did to her.
She licked her lips again, raising her gaze to his. Oh. God. That burn there. That intensity. His eyes were hooded, his expression raw sensuality. He steadied her. Made her feel as if she could do anything for him. Anything with him. She opened her mouth, her eyes on his.
Do you want this? It belongs to you. Tell me you want it. Tell me what you want to do with it.
He brought his cock close so that she could feel the heat of him, smell his masculine scent, the one that made her feel wild inside. The one that drove her insane. He was pushing her comfort zone. She could tell him she wanted it, but to say what she wanted to do with it was difficult. Still, she knew he was pushing those boundaries to break them down. To allow them complete intimacy. And she wanted that. To be able to make her own demands, to tell him aloud or intimately what she wanted or enjoyed, was important. She knew that.
I want your cock in my mouth, she said, knowing he could read her discomfort. But if he could read her discomfort, he could also read her eagerness. He would know that her body was on fire, dripping wet. Her slick, hot cream was beginning to touch the insides of her thighs. She couldn’t imagine how wet the thong was.
What do you want to do, little cat?
I need your cock in my mouth. I want to lick you clean and suck you until I’m filled with the taste of you.
And then what?
Then I want you deep inside of me. Taking me.
Gentle or hard?
Both. Whatever you want. I love what you do to me.
She knew it was a good answer, because he put the broad head of his cock against her lips and then slowly fed it to her. If she was being entirely honest with herself, this was the part of sex she’d dreaded the most. She didn’t know if she would like it. She didn’t know what she was doing. For her husband, she’d always wanted to be good at this, to the point that she’d actually looked up how, but she really didn’t think she’d be any good because she couldn’t imagine liking it.
She hadn’t counted on his taste. The fact that he was hers. And she wanted hers. She hadn’t counted on the lifemate bond being so strong already. More, she hadn’t realized how much she wanted to feel safe and secure, to have some direction in a world she hadn’t wanted to live in. Aleksei was all those things, but even more. He was Aleksei. And she wanted to give him something special. Something to remember. She couldn’t use her hands, but she found being at his mercy was sexy and exciting because she had to trust him.
He was gentle and that surprised her. Very gentle. She took him into her mouth and used her tongue to explore, to catch the drops that tasted like hot spice and cool forest. Like Aleksei. He was large and intimidating, so she couldn’t do what all the books had said to do, but he didn’t seem to mind.
Peje hot. You look so scorching hot. A tight wet fist wrapped around me. Just like that, kessake. Perfection. His hands gripped her hair and he pulled her just a little closer, so that he went a little deeper.
She loved that he was careful. She loved that his eyes burned into hers as she suckled and used her mouth and tongue to pleasure him. She mostly loved that he loved what she was doing to him. She could see that on his face. In his eyes. In his body. Feel it there in her mouth.
Enough, kessake, or I will not be responsible for what happens.
Her lips clung to him as he slowly slid out, his hand wrapped firmly around the heavy base of his shaft.
You’re beautiful, Aleksei. I loved having you in my mouth. She wanted to tell him she wanted to continue, that she wanted to learn more, to be really, really good at giving him pleasure, but her body was already shaking with need.
He moved around her, until he was behind her, his hand on her back. He hooked an arm around her waist and pulled her back until she was kneeling on the edge of the bed. His hand went between her shoulder blades and began to apply pressure. She complied instantly. Her head and torso went to the mattress. She kept her butt in the air.
Higher. Push up with your hips.
Heart pounding, she did so. At this angle, he would be able to really penetrate, to be deep inside her. Connecting them. She could barely breathe with anticipation. She waited. The cool air hit her hot entrance and she closed her eyes as the sensations swept through her. Waiting was so difficult. She couldn’t see him. She couldn’t hear him. She could only wait for him to touch her.
His hand came down on her left bare cheek, sharp, flat, unexpected, making her jump, flooding her body again with liquid heat. It didn’t hurt, although it stung, but in an erotic way, and his palm was there, smoothing and rubbing caresses. Then she felt the jerk of her thong and it was gone, shredded. Leaving her completely exposed to him. She wore only the stretchy lacy camisole and her garters and stockings. His hands moved to the insides of her thighs, stroking until fingers of desire raced up and down.
She swallowed hard, trying to stay still for him. Trying not to plead and sob when she was becoming desperate. Then he started really torturing her. Light smacks all over, never in the same place, hard enough to send warmth spreading and to sensitize every nerve ending, not hard enough to hurt. She’d never felt anything so erotic in her life. She didn’t know how to breathe through it. The tension in her wound tighter and tighter until she knew she was going to implode.
Aleksei. She tried to warn him. She was not going to be able to hang on, and she knew instinctively he didn’t want her to orgasm. She was so close. So needy. It was too much. All that heat and fire. Building, constantly building with no relief.
No.
The single command vibrated through her body. Sent her even higher. She forced air through her lungs, determined to hang on for him. His fingers plunged deep and she screamed. Nearly shattered. Fought it back.
I can’t.
You can. Not until I tell you.
He was in the mood to play. Her body shook with urgency as his fingers were replaced by his mouth. His tongue plunged deep and she moaned and pushed back, grinding herself against his mouth. Immediately he was gone and she cried out in frustration.