The Cerulean (The Cerulean Duology #1) - Amy Ewing Page 0,47
the railing to the foyer below.
Leo shrugged. “Ask him yourself. If he’ll even tell you. I’m going to be seeing her tomorrow, though. I’ll send your regards.” Then he sauntered back inside his room and closed the door.
Hattie wanted her to wear one of her nicer dresses, but Agnes did not feel like dressing up to be yelled at. She chose a simple white blouse and gray skirt instead, shoving her damp hair up into a bun. Hattie stuck a few decorative pins in it and laid out a gold necklace with a Solit triangle pendant. Before she left for Xavier’s study, Agnes checked the door to her lab to make sure it was locked. Now that Sera’s hair was hidden inside, she felt herself becoming paranoid.
Her father stood leaning over an open desk drawer when she knocked. The drawer clicked, locking as he closed it.
“Sit,” he said without preamble, gesturing to one of the two hardback chairs facing the desk. Xavier liked to keep his guests uncomfortable in this room. Agnes sat in silence—she knew that no amount of apologizing would help her cause. He would punish her as he saw fit.
Besides, she wasn’t sorry, and she wasn’t going to lie and say she was. Xavier leaned back and studied her. The grandfather clock ticked loudly, and Agnes tried to focus on its steady beat. She felt as though he was looking inside her, peeling back the layers of her skin, but she wasn’t about to give him the satisfaction of seeing how much it unnerved her.
“If only you had been born a boy,” he said at last, and the words were a knife to Agnes’s heart. She knew, of course. She wasn’t stupid enough to think that her gender did not offend him, or that at the very least he wished she would act like a regular girl. Leo commented on it all the time.
But her father had never said it out loud.
“I’m sorry to disappoint you,” she said. His stare somehow became even more penetrating.
“No, you aren’t.” He turned in his chair to look out the window. “I have been far too lenient with you. The lab, your behavior, letting Eneas teach you Pelagan . . .” Agnes’s chest seized up. “That ends now. Ebenezer Grange’s father has made a very good offer for your hand, and I have accepted on your behalf. You will meet with Ebenezer tomorrow and make it official.”
“What?” Agnes yelped. She had always thought that when the time came, at the very least she would be involved in the decision. She knew her father would have the final say, but this was cruel even for him. The Granges were a social-climbing merchant family; Ebenezer was a thin, nervous boy whom Agnes had never given much thought to. Now, all of a sudden, she was to marry him? “Father, don’t you think—”
“Do not tell me what to think, Agnes, and be grateful I am not sending you away to a sanatorium for hysterical young ladies.” He turned back to face her. “I should never have indulged you, but I thought . . .” He clenched his teeth, and Agnes knew he had been about to mention her mother. She drew on every shred of courage she had left to ask a question that had been brewing for years.
“Couldn’t you send me to live with my grandmother? I wouldn’t be such an embarrassment in Pelago, and perhaps . . .” But the words died on her lips. Agnes remembered what Hattie had said, that Xavier had turned to stone with anger when he’d discovered she was gone. She saw it happening again now. One hand curled into a fist and his eyes narrowed a fraction. Otherwise he was completely still.
“You think sending you to that godforsaken country to live with your witch of a grandmother will make you less of an embarrassment?” His voice was slow, deliberate. “I thought you were the smart one, Agnes.”
The knife in her heart twisted.
“Mother would have wanted me to know her,” she blurted out.
Xavier slammed his fist down on the table, rattling his fountain pen and making her jump. “You do not know what your mother would have wanted,” he snarled. “And you certainly don’t know the first thing about Ambrosine Byrne. You think your grandmother is some kindly, gray-haired schoolmarm? Think again, Agnes.”
Heat rose in her cheeks, because to be honest, that was exactly how she’d pictured her.