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the perfect opportunity to get out for a bit and get some fresh air. It just so happens there’s a darling little park a few blocks from Bennett’s place.

Yesterday was a dream. Honor’s arrival went off without a hitch. She loved her bear, her locket, the flowers, the donuts, the balloons, her pink bedroom—but most of all, she loved Bennett.

He was certain I’d be the hot ticket item, and sure, she was glad to see me, but Bennett was absolutely the star of the show.

While I wouldn’t exactly call him a natural with kids, I think he’s getting the hang of it. Last night after dinner, I gave Honor a bath and when we came out, he’d already dimmed the lights in her room and selected a bedtime story to read to her.

I think he’s going to do just fine with this whole fatherhood thing …

He stands in front of the swings, camera out as he snaps a picture.

I push Honor higher and our eyes catch.

He smiles.

I smile.

If I could bask in this moment forever, I would. It’s perfection in its most pure and simple form. A family memory in the making.

My heart swells.

When I look into his eyes, when I hear the conviction in his voice when he speaks about his family and his dedication to Honor—I know in my heart of hearts that he’s a good man.

And I believe him about Errol.

When we’re finished at the park, Bennett surprises us with a trip to a local ice cream parlor in his neighborhood. On the way home, he holds my hand as Honor skips ahead, her dark pigtails bouncing as she sings a song from school.

For the first time in years, I’m enveloped in head-to-toe warmth and there’s a fullness in my soul.

It’s a feeling I’ve felt only twice before—once with Linda and again with Trevor.

And that feeling … is home.

With them, I am home.

Forty-Four

Bennett

* * *

“Anything else I can do before I take off, Mr. Schoenbach?” Eulalia asks Monday night as Honor and I take our places at the dinner table. Astaire had to work late tonight, some mandatory teacher’s workshop, so it’s just the two of us.

“No. Thank you, Eulalia. We’ll see you tomorrow.” I place my napkin in my lap, feeling the watchful little gaze at the other end of the table.

Honor does the same. She’s good at that—noticing something and copying it. She’s a tiny human sponge. A mimic.

I reach for my bourbon.

She reaches for her water.

We sip.

We exchange smiles.

“You look so small all the way at the end of the table. Why don’t you take the seat next to mine?” I offer.

She climbs down from her chair and carefully slides her placemat and bowl of macaroni and cheese to the chair on my right.

“How was school today?” I think back to our initial family dinners with Larissa. My mother would never ask about her day and my father could never be bothered to ask about anyone’s day. We were supposed to sit still, eat our dinners, and look adorable doing so.

“Good.” She chews. “Ms. Carraro let us have an extra recess today. She said we were super good and we deserved it.”

I glance at the chair to my left, where she’d be sitting if she were here, and I can’t shake the sensation that we’re missing a vital piece in this little operation.

“What’d you do today?” Honor asks.

It’s a question I’m not used to having to answer, so I take a moment and try to recall the past several hours.

“Let’s see.” I slice into my filet mignon. “I read a book. Took a walk outside …”

“You didn’t go to work?”

“I’m off of work for a few weeks.”

Honor scans me, nose wrinkled. “Why? Are you sick or somethin’?”

“Just taking it easy for a while.”

“What’s that mean?” she asks.

“Taking it easy? It means slowing down, doing less, enjoying the little things.”

“Oh. Okay.” She chews her pasta, staring at the unlit candle centerpiece on the table. “Is Ms. Carraro coming over tonight?”

I shake my head. “Unfortunately not.”

She pouts. But only for a moment.

She’s a happy child. Thank God. I’ve yet to experience tears or tantrums, though I know they’re par for the course and it’s only a matter of time. But so far, so good.

“You’ll see her tomorrow morning,” I add. “And she’ll be bringing you home after school.”

“Yay!” Honor bounces in her seat before stabbing another forkful of mac and cheese. There’s simplicity and wholesomeness in being around her, and I get the impression those are