looked up with puffy eyes as soon as Miles came in to check on him. He was still sitting in bed, his hair disheveled. He hadn’t been awake for more than a few minutes.
Miles smiled. “Good morning, champ.”
Jonah looked up from his bed, almost as if in slow motion. “Hey, Dad.”
“You ready for some breakfast?”
He stretched his arms out to the side, groaning slightly. “Can I have pancakes?”
“How about some waffles instead? We’re running a little late.”
Jonah bent over and grabbed his pants. Miles had laid them out the night before. “You say that every morning.”
Miles shrugged. “You’re late every morning.”
“Then wake me up sooner.”
“I have a better idea—why don’t you go to sleep when I tell you to?”
“I’m not tired then. I’m only tired in the mornings.”
“Join the club.”
“Huh?”
“Never mind,” Miles answered. He pointed to the bathroom. “Don’t forget to brush your hair after you get dressed.”
“I won’t,” Jonah said.
Most mornings followed the same routine. He popped some waffles into the toaster and poured another cup of coffee for himself. By the time Jonah had dressed himself and made it to the kitchen, his waffle was waiting on his plate, a glass of milk beside it. Miles had already spread the butter, but Jonah liked to add the syrup himself. Miles started in on his own waffle, and for a minute, neither of them said anything. Jonah still looked as if he were in his own little world, and though Miles needed to talk to him, he wanted him to at least seem coherent.
After a few minutes of companionable silence, Miles finally cleared his throat.
“So, how’s school going?” he asked.
Jonah shrugged. “Fine, I guess.”
This question too, was part of the routine. Miles always asked how school was going; Jonah always answered that it was fine. But earlier that morning, while getting Jonah’s backpack ready, Miles had found a note from Jonah’s teacher, asking him if it was possible to meet today. Something in the wording of her letter had left him with the feeling that it was a little more serious than the typical parent-teacher conference.
“You doing okay in class?”
Jonah shrugged. “Uh-huh.”
“Do you like your teacher?”
Jonah nodded in between bites. “Uh-huh,” he answered again.
Miles waited to see if Jonah would add anything more, but he didn’t. Miles leaned a little closer.
“Then why didn’t you tell me about the note your teacher sent home?”
“What note?” he asked innocently.
“The note in your backpack—the one your teacher wanted me to read.”
Jonah shrugged again, his shoulders popping up and down like the waffles in the toaster. “I guess I just forgot.”
“How could you forget something like that?”
“I don’t know.”
“Do you know why she wants to see me?”
“No . . .” Jonah hesitated, and Miles knew immediately that he wasn’t telling the truth.
“Son, are you in trouble at school?”
At this, Jonah blinked and looked up. His father didn’t call him “son” unless he’d done something wrong. “No, Dad. I don’t ever act up. I promise.”
“Then what is it?”
“I don’t know.”
“Think about it.”
Jonah squirmed in his seat, knowing he’d reached the limit of his father’s patience. “Well, I guess I might be having a little trouble with some of the work.”
“I thought you said school was going okay.”
“School is going okay. Miss Andrews is really nice and all, and I like it there.” He paused. “It’s just that sometimes I don’t understand everything that’s going on in class.”
“That’s why you go to school. So you can learn.”
“I know,” he answered, “but she’s not like Mrs. Hayes was last year. The work she assigns is hard. I just can’t do some of it.”
Jonah looked scared and embarrassed at exactly the same time. Miles reached out and put his hand on his son’s shoulder.
“Why didn’t you tell me you were having trouble?”
It took a long time for Jonah to answer.
“Because,” he said finally, “I didn’t want you to be mad at me.”
After breakfast, after making sure Jonah was ready to go, Miles helped him with his backpack and led him to the front door. Jonah hadn’t said much since breakfast. Squatting down, Miles kissed him on the cheek. “Don’t worry about this afternoon. It’s gonna be all right, okay?”
“Okay,” Jonah mumbled.
“And don’t forget that I’ll be picking you up, so don’t get on the bus.”
“Okay,” he said again.
“I love you, champ.”
“I love you, too, Dad.”
Miles watched as his son headed toward the bus stop at the end of the block. Missy, he knew, wouldn’t have been surprised by what had happened this morning, as he had been.