What had happened? What had the Teacher said? Murderous rampage. What were these words?
Even James had the same look on his face as the men.
"Oh, you think people don't talk about these things?" asked the Teacher. "As if I believe travelers' tales."
They said nothing.
Then in a soft voice Joseph spoke.
"The Lord made patience for this!" he said. "But I don't have it. We go home because it is our home," he went on, staring at the Teacher, "and it is the Lord's land. And because Herod is dead."
The Teacher was taken aback. Everyone else was surprised. Even my mother was surprised, and I could see the women looking at each other.
Now, we little ones all knew Herod was the King of the Holy Land, and we knew he was a bad man. Only lately had he done a terrible thing, a desecrating of the Temple, or so we'd heard as all the men talked about it but we didn't know much more than that.
The Teacher was frowning at Joseph.
"Joseph, it's not wise to say such a thing," the Teacher said. "You can't speak of the King in this way."
"He is dead," said Joseph. "The news will come by the Roman post in two days."
The Teacher was cold. All the others were quiet, eyes on Joseph.
"How do you know?" asked the Teacher.
No answer.
"It will take a little while to prepare for our journey," Joseph said. "Our boys will have to work with us until then. No more school for them now, I fear."
"And what will Philo think?" asked the Teacher, "when he hears that you're taking Jesus?"
"What has Philo to do with my son," said my mother. Her voice shocked everyone.
Another silence followed.
I knew this was not an easy moment.
A while back, the Teacher had taken me to Philo, a rich man and a scholar, to show me to him as a fine pupil, and Philo had taken a great liking to me, and even taken me to the Great Synagogue which was as large and beautiful as the pagan temples of the city, where the rich Jews gathered on the Sabbath, a place to which my family never went. We went to the little House of Prayer in our own street.
It was after those visits that Philo had given work to us from his house, to make wooden doors and benches and book stands for his new library, and soon his friends had given our family similar jobs which meant good wages as well.
Philo had treated me as a guest when I was brought to him.
And even today when we had put in the doors on their pivots, and picked up the painted benches from the men who did the painting and taken them to Philo, I had seen him and he had taken time with us to tell Joseph kind things about me.
But to talk of this now, that Philo had taken a liking to me? It was not right, and I felt the men were uneasy as they looked at the Teacher. They had worked hard for Philo and for Philo's friends.
The Teacher did not answer my mother.
Finally Joseph said: "Philo should be surprised that my son goes home with me to Nazareth?"
"Nazareth?" said the Teacher coldly. "What is Nazareth? I've never heard of such a place. You came here from Bethlehem. Your terrible stories, why you - . Philo thinks Jesus is the most promising scholar he's ever seen. Philo would educate your son if you would allow. That's what Philo has to do with your son, that's what Philo's said. Philo would see to it - ."
"Philo has nothing to do with our son," said my mother, again shocking all that she spoke up, her hands clasping my shoulders tightly.
No more the rich house with its marble floors. No more the library of parchment scrolls. Smell of ink. Greek is the language of the Empire. See this? This is a map of the Empire. Hold the edge for me there. Look. All this Rome rules. There is Rome, here is Alexandria, here is Jerusalem. See, there Antioch, Damascus, Corinth, Ephesus, all great cities, and in all these cities the Jews live and speak Greek and have Torah in Greek. But there is no city outside of Rome as great as Alexandria where we are now.
I shook off the memory. James was staring at me. The Teacher was talking to me.