eyes, and I bit the inside of my cheek to keep them from falling. I could handle a lot of things. But I felt like a dam breaking in that moment. There was only so much a girl could take. Chase’s mood swings were exhausting, and I couldn’t keep up anymore. I just had to get out.
I left so quickly that I didn’t even give him a chance to change his mind. I was already halfway out the door when I thought I heard him say my name, but I couldn’t handle Chase like this. I kept going and closed the door behind me, sighing in relief once I had an entire house between us.
I had bigger things to worry about than Chase’s erratic behavior. Like why Lex Lewis was so interested in me.
Dear Diary,
He was angry at me today. I pushed him too far. I demanded too much. He slapped my cheek, so I grabbed his cock. I unbuttoned him like a dress shirt, reveling in his unraveling. Slowly. Sensually. He told me my mouth was wasted on kisses and pleas. He said I should fill it with something more worthwhile.
XOXO,
Violet
Chase was avoiding me in school, which was pretty easy since we didn’t have any classes together. I was surprised that Chase showed up at all; his attendance had been sporadic at best lately, not that I was one to talk. I only even knew that he was here at all because I overheard some juniors talking about how good his ass looked today. Typical.
I was relieved that Chase didn’t want to try to revisit the conversation we had last night. It was odd how similar he and Violet were to one another. When they felt wronged, it was normal for them to give the silent treatment. Sometimes, I wondered if they did it because their parents were always cutting them off. They were taught how to be absent by them.
I was nervous enough about the barbecue tonight that I didn’t think about Chase’s silence too much. Kai texted last night and asked if he could pick me up from school today. He didn’t want me driving alone to the barbecue, and I got the feeling that Kai was just as nervous as I was. Chase had only just recently told me Kai’s family was involved in drugs. But it all felt sensationalized. I let my mind wander to other extremes. Sex trafficking. Murder for hire. Embezzlement.
When the last bell of the day finally rang, I sprang out of my seat and headed outside, keeping my head down to avoid Chase should we run into one another. I knew he was mad about me going, but he wanted me to find answers, and I was in too deep to stop now. When I got to the pond on the other side of the school, Kai was already waiting for me. His truck was grumbling, and rock music blared loudly from his speakers. I could see at least two surfboards in the bed of the truck, along with some other gear. When Kai saw me, he reached over the passenger side and pushed open the door. I smoothed my jean shorts and tugged at the flowy white tank top I wore before climbing inside.
“Hey,” I greeted as he turned down the music.
Kai wasted no time diving into the seriousness of what we were doing. “This is going to be quick, okay? In and out. Let Lex do his usual power play, then we leave. I’ll take you straight home.”
I straightened in my seat while shoving my backpack into the space by my feet. Hello to you, too. Kai looked over at me and huffed.
“What?” I asked.
He rolled his eyes, then leaned over and grabbed the buckle, strapping me in like I was an incompetent toddler. Up close, I could smell the salt water on his skin and a hint of cologne. He was wearing a white button up surf shirt and board shorts. His skin was kissed with a deep tan, and his hair was wet, like he just got out of the ocean and came straight here to pick me up. His hand brushed against my thigh, and I turned my attention to the window with a sigh.
“I could have done that,” I whispered.
“I’m faster. How’s your side?”
It was doing a little better. I didn’t need Tylenol to get through the day anymore. “Good. Should I be prepared for anything? What can I expect?” I asked. I wanted more