looks really good with her bright red hair, I have to admit. I envy her confidence. I’m confident to a certain extent, but I’m aware that my hips and breasts are larger than most women my age. I tend to wear clothes that hide my large bust, while she tries to draw as much attention as possible to hers.
“I know . . .” I say, humoring her. But then my laptop screen turns black and I press the power button and wait . . . and wait. The black screen remains.
“See! It’s a sign that you should come. My laptop’s at Nate’s apartment, so you can’t use mine.” She smirks and teases her hair again.
Looking at her, I realize I really don’t want to sit in the dorm alone without anything to do or watch.
“Fine,” I say, and she jumps up and down, clapping her hands. “But we’re leaving before midnight.”
chapter fifteen
I change out of my pajamas and put on a new pair of jeans that I haven’t worn yet. They are a little tighter than my usual pants, but I’m in desperate need of a trip to the laundry room, so I don’t have much of a choice. My shirt is a simple black button-up, sleeveless shirt with lace trim on the shoulders.
“Wow, I actually like your outfit a lot,” Steph tells me. I smile and she tries to offer me eyeliner again.
“Not this time,” I tell her, remembering how it smeared from my tears last time. Why did I agree to go back to that frat house again?
“Okay. Molly is picking us up instead of Nate; she just texted that she’ll be here any minute.”
“I don’t think she likes me,” I say as I check myself out in the mirror.
Steph cocks her head to one side. “What? She does. She’s just bitchy and too honest sometimes. And I think she is intimidated by you.”
“Intimidated? By me? Why on earth would she be intimidated by me?” I say and laugh. Steph clearly has this backward.
“I think just because you’re so different from us,” she says and smiles. I know I’m different from them, but to me they are the “different” ones. “Don’t worry about her, though; she’ll be occupied tonight.”
“By Hardin?” I ask before I can stop myself. I continue to look at the mirror, but I can’t help but notice the way she is looking at me with one eyebrow raised.
“No, by Zed probably. She changes guys every week.”
That’s a harsh thing to say about a friend, but she just smiles and adjusts her top.
“She isn’t dating Hardin?” The image of them making out on the bed comes to mind.
“No way. Hardin doesn’t date. He fucks with a lot of girls, but he doesn’t date anyone. Ever.”
“Oh,” is all I manage to say.
THE PARTY TONIGHT is the same as last week. The lawn and house are crowded with drunk people everywhere. Why didn’t I just stay in and stare at my ceiling?
Molly disappears as soon as we arrive, and I end up getting a spot on the couch and am sitting there for at least an hour when Hardin walks by.
“You look . . . different,” he says after a short pause. His eyes rake down my body and back up to rest on my face. He doesn’t even try to be subtle about the way he’s assessing me. I stay silent until his eyes meet mine. “Your clothes actually fit you tonight.”
I roll my eyes and adjust my shirt, suddenly wishing I was wearing my normal loose clothing.
“It’s a surprise to see you here.”
“I’m a bit surprised that I ended up here again,” I say and walk away from him. He doesn’t follow, but for some reason I find myself wishing he would have.
A few hours later, Steph is drunk again. Well, as much as everyone else is.
“Let’s play Truth or Dare,” Zed slurs and their small group of friends gather around the couch. Molly passes a bottle of clear alcohol to Nate and he takes a swig. Hardin’s hand is so large that it covers his entire red cup as he takes a sip. Another punk-looking girl joins the game, making it Hardin, Zed, Nate, Nate’s roommate Tristan, Molly, Steph, and the new girl.
I’m just thinking that a drunken game of Truth or Dare can’t possibly end well when Molly says with a wicked smile, “You should play, too, Tessa.”
“No, I’d rather not,” I tell her and focus my attention on a brown stain on the