“Why do you always ask so many questions?” he groans and sits on the chair.
“I don’t know, why won’t you answer them?” I ask, but of course he ignores me. “Can I hang up my outfit for tomorrow? I don’t want it to get too wrinkled from being in my bag.”
He seems to think about it for a second before he nods and stands to retrieve a hanger from his closet. I grab the skirt and blouse out and put them on the hanger, ignoring his sour expression at my clothing.
“I have to get up earlier than usual tomorrow so I can be at the bus station by eight forty-five; the stop three streets over is on the route that gets me two blocks away from Vance,” I inform him.
“What? You’re going there tomorrow? Why didn’t you tell me?”
“I did . . . you were too busy sulking to pay attention,” I fire back.
“I will drive you there; you don’t need to take, what’s it, like an hour-long bus ride.”
I want to decline his offer just to annoy him but I decide against it. Hardin’s car is a much better way to get there than a crowded bus.
“I am going to get a car soon; I can’t last any longer without one. If I get the internship, I would have to take the bus there three days a week.”
“I would drive you,” he says, his voice almost a whisper.
“I’ll just get my own car,” I tell him. “The last thing I need is for you to be mad at me and not pick me up.”
“I would never do that.” His tone is serious.
“Yeah, you would. Then I would be stuck trying to find a bus route. No, thanks,” I half-joke. I honestly feel like I could depend on him, but I don’t want to take any chances. He is just too moody.
Hardin turns on the television and stands up to change his clothes, so I home in on what he’s doing. No matter how annoyed with him I am, I would never turn down a chance to watch him undress. His shirt is pulled over his head first, then I watch his muscles contract under his skin as he unbuttons and pulls down his tight black jeans. Just as I think he is going to wear only boxers, he pulls a pair of thin cotton pants out of his dresser and puts them on. He stays shirtless, lucky for me.
“Here,” he mumbles and hands me the shirt he just removed. I can’t help the smile on my face as I take it in my hands. This must be our thing now; he must like me wearing his shirt to bed as much as I love the smell of him on the fabric. Hardin focuses on the television as I follow his lead and change into his shirt and a pair of yoga pants. The pants are more like spandex leggings, but they are comfortable. After I fold up my bra and clothes Hardin finally looks at me again. He clears his throat and his eyes rake my body.
“Those . . . um . . . are really sexy.”
I flush. “Thanks.”
“Much better than your fuzzy cloud pants,” he teases, and I laugh while taking a seat on the floor. I feel oddly comfortable in his room. Maybe it’s the books, or Hardin, I am not sure.
“Did you mean it in the car when you said you barely know me?” he asks quietly. His question is very unexpected.
“Sort of. You aren’t the easiest person to get to know.”
“I feel like I know you,” he says, his eyes locked onto mine.
“Yeah, because I let you. I tell you things about myself.”
“I tell you things, too. It may not seem that way, but you know me better than anyone else does.” He looks down at the floor, then back into my eyes. He looks sad and vulnerable, such a difference from his usual angry intensity, but equally as captivating.
I am not sure what to say to his confession; I feel like I do know Hardin on a very personal level, like somehow we connect much deeper than just knowing minuscule bits of information about each other, but it doesn’t feel like nearly enough. I need to know more.
“You know me better than anyone, too,” I tell him. He knows me, the real Tessa. Not the Tessa that I have to pretend to be around my mother,