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Just maybe I was worthy of love.
Krit had taken me to breakfast yesterday, and we had then gone for a longer ride on his motorcycle along the beach road. When we had gotten back, he had come inside and we had talked about my classes. He had read me the lyrics of a song he was writing and asked me what I thought. It was late afternoon before he left to get a nap before his performance that night.
Linc had called later that evening to ask if I wanted to see a movie. The idea of getting to be close to someone again and feeling connected had sounded wonderful, so I had of course told him yes. Both Linc and Krit had been around me enough to know if there was evil in me. They would have seen it by now and been disgusted by it. Both of them seemed to genuinely like me.
A knock on the door brought me out of my thoughts, and I looked up from my computer screen, where I had intended to write some of my book. The door opened, and Krit stuck his head in. His eyes scanned the room until they found me, and then he smiled. The smile that always made me feel like warm honey was running through me.
“You really should lock this door,” he said as he stepped inside.
“Why? To keep out the riffraff?” I asked teasingly, then cocked an eyebrow at him.
He shrugged. “Well, you left it unlocked and look what happened.”
I nodded and gave him a serious frown. “I can see what you mean. Maybe I should get an extra bolt,” I replied.
Krit grabbed his heart. “Ouch,” he said, then fell back into the chair, facing me. “That was deep, love. Fucking sharp.”
I rolled my eyes and leaned back in my chair. “You’ll survive. I’m positive of it.”
Krit propped up both of his feet on the coffee table in front of him and studied me for a moment. “Come tonight and listen to the band. We’re at Live Bay again because of a scheduling change this week. You can sit with Trisha. You didn’t get to hear much the other night.”
This was where us being friends was going to be difficult. Telling him I had a date with Linc to see a movie shouldn’t be a big deal. But for some reason it was hard to say so out loud. I didn’t want him to think Linc was more important, though I had a feeling Linc wasn’t asking me out again because he wanted just to be my friend.
“You have plans already, don’t you?” he said before I could come up with something to say that wasn’t awkward.
“Linc asked me to go to the movies with him tonight,” I admitted. I had no reason to feel bad about this. No reason at all . . . but I did. Dang it.
Krit let out a sigh. “Fine. He asked first. It’s all good. But Thursday night I’ll be playing at Live Bay, and I want you to come.”
Okay. We could do this. He was making it easy, and I was making it harder than it had to be. “Deal,” I agreed.
Krit nodded, but he didn’t seem happy. “You eating on this date?” he asked.
Linc hadn’t said anything about dinner. He’d just invited me to a movie. I shook my head.
Krit pulled his phone out of his pocket. “Good. I’m starving. What time is he going to be here?”
“Six,” I replied.
“That leaves us with two hours,” he said, and a smile had replaced his frown. “Thai or Italian? Or do you want to get those fajitas from that Mexican place again?”
He was ordering us takeout. I didn’t want to feel that squishy feeling in my chest that made me feel tingly. At least not where Krit was concerned. But oddly enough, he was the only person who managed to trigger that feeling.
“Not that hard of a question, love,” he said, reminding me that I needed to answer him.
I had bad memories of Thai food. “The fajitas sound good.”
“That’s my girl,” he said as he dialed the number to the Mexican place. I knew he didn’t mean anything by it, but I had never been referred to as belonging to someone before. The simple my girl meant more to me than he realized. In fact, if he knew how deep that struck with me, he would run off again—and this time he’d possibly never come back.
I studied my screen like I was actually thinking about what to write next, but I listened to Krit order food. He acted like he belonged there in my place. Maybe that was supposed to freak me out, but it didn’t. It did the exact opposite.
When he hung up, I had gathered enough courage so I could turn to him and blurt it out before I realized how stupid I sounded.
“Can I take a picture of us on my phone? I don’t have a picture of us . . . and I’d like one.”
Krit glanced around the room, as if noticing for the first time that I didn’t have a picture of me with anyone, and then his eyes came back to me. “Only if you text it to me so I’ll have it too.”